Leave me alone...

This whole "blog" thing still has me a little confused.
Most times, I don't know what I should write or who I should be writing to...
Should I write about my day? about my life? about my deepest thoughts? to myself? to my friends? to strangers?
It's so annoying...
I'm not an extroverted person, so to keep up a blog kinda makes me anxious.
No, I don't need zoloft or paxil or ginko or whatever people with anxiety attacks take... I'm not that mental... but since I'm a pretty closed-off person, it feels weird to broadcast things on the internet... the most public thing in the world.
I don't enjoy telling people about myself.
I thought that Korea would be perfect for me because I wouldn't know anyone and since I speak English, not Korean, people would leave me alone.
Unfortunately, I was wrong.
I'm constantly bombarded by people who want to befriend me.
At school, the kids treat me like a star...
Even now, there are tons of kids looking over my shoulder, trying to read what I am writing...
The teachers always want to know about my day-to-day life and take me out...
At church, they want me to teach English to the kiddies...
If only people knew how much I want to be left alone.
I hate making new friends.
The awkward silences, the small talk, the courtesy-laughs, the questions...
I have my friends and I don't want anymore.
In the States, I had 6 girlfriends (and their boys), several church friends, and mia famiglia.
In Korea, I have several friends and family.
It confuses a lot people when I tell them that I don't want to go out or that I don't want to keep in touch...
"can you go out this weekend?" (no, i can't)
"do you want to have dinner next week?" (no, i don't)
"do you still talk to any of the people you met during orientation?" (nope)
Why is it so confusing?
If you are not a friend, then I don't want to spend time with you.
Period.
"But, Jane, how can you create long-lasting friendships when you don't want to meet new people? Strangers are friends you just haven't met."
See, but that's just it.
I don't want new or more friends.
It's not like I won't talk to people or I won't go out or I won't socialize, it's just that I would prefer not to.
If anyone out there is reading this, please try to understand.