You know one thing that never fails to trip me out?
Time...
I don't know anyone who wouldn't agree with me here.
Sometimes when I think about time, I get so frustrated that I want to pee my pants or peel off my skin or something.
I'm not even kidding.
Time is so strange...
We know the past, we know the present, but there is no way we can know the future.
Why?
Why can't we know the future in the same way we know the past or the present?
I don't know what's going to happen a minute from now, yet within the next 60 seconds, time will tick away and all of a sudden the future becomes the present, it's something I'm living, then it's gone... a memory.
Then, once it becomes the past, there's nothing you can do to change or undo what has happened.
Yes, you can correct or fix things of the past, but you can't actually change any events of the past.
So, you can't change the past and you don't know the future, you're only left with the present.
But, what does that mean?
To live in the moment?
Do all that carpe diem crap?
But, where does that get you?
In general, I think people usually do the things they do because ultimately, people want to be happy.
Study, get a good job, make lots of money... why?... so you can have everything you want and live a happy life.
But, would life be that much more worth living if you're always living like everyday was your last?
Like, if I dropped everything and seized the day (I say this very sarcastically), will I be happy?
I don't know about that.
But, when I'm old and weary, and I know that there aren't many more future-days to look forward to or many present-days to live, and all I am capable of doing is looking back at the past, will I wish that things could have been just a little different?
Will I wish that time was something I had more control of?
... then, when I realize that although I couldn't control time itself, I could've controlled some of what happened during that time, what then?

Ah, I don't know...
Time is crazy and it makes me crazy thinking of it.